used

i'm trying to write this song (see post below)...and the more i try to write, the more i get pissed at myself for being used and temporary.

'i am just your temporary cure
for the hole i could never fill...'

then again i'm mad at myself for opening up too soon...for baring a part of me that i can't take being stomped on.

'i let you in a smaller door,
one that seldom sees the light...'

and then having that little part of me stepped on, ridiculed?

'it didn't mean the same to you
you laughed and left me there...'

you know, honestly, i don't know what i'm looking for. but i do know that i want someone who i can share my emotions and sentiments with and they will appreciate them...or at least appreciate why i feel that way...which would entail maybe not ridiculing them? maybe? j rich writes in his song mr. temporary this: 'you're still singing love songs to a lover undercover...'

yeah, i am. and i'm still dating that idea. but there's this one thing that really bothers me. you just like being liked...it feels so one-sided.